Revelations

This past week and weekend have been full of revelations for me. Things that I was once scared of seem to be not so scary. Things that once affected me no longer have as much weight. Things that I thought wouldn't be that big a deal have turned out to be a big deal. And I guess the biggest thing is realizing how selfish I am about some things. It really has been a wild couple of days. Would I have ever believed that I would react to things like I did, probably not.

Its really been an unbelievable realization that things change. And how I deal with them or don't deal with them is going to be what makes or breaks me. My dad always says you either deal with change or you die. And not seriously like you die but parts of you begin to die when you don't allow change in your life. So with that said, there are things going on now that I'm like hey bring on the change but there are also things that I 'm not so ready to give up and just the mention of the way their changing brings tears to my eyes.

But yesterday was really the best day I have had in a while. Me and Jeremy went for a walk out by the pond into the woods with his chocolate lab Blitz and our cat Belvedere. It was sunny and warm and peaceful and quiet. In his woods way behind the house there are trash piles from the 1920's, 30's all the way into the 50s. I know it sounds gross but before there were landfills and trash services people either burned their trash except for the glass. So in his woods there are all sorts of old bottles. We found some old Dr. Pepper bottles and an old milk bottle. Its kind of like getting to be an explorer. And so we kind of have an old bottle collection. But it was just one of those days you're just glad to be alive, in love and healthy. It was very good.