Fall...

I don't know what it is about this time of year but I love it and I hate it! I love how the air smells, crisp and cool. I love being at football games and snuggling under a blanket. I love having fires and seeing the leaves change colors. What I hate is how depressed I feel due to lack of daylight. I never understood how much I need sunlight until I started working. You leave and its almost daylight, you come home and its almost dark. So you try your best to go outside at lunch. Which I do confess does help, but I really never understood just how important those couple of hours of daylight a day could make such a difference.

I had gotten into a fairly good habit of coming home after work and eating dinner then going to the park to run/walk. Well now it seems like when I come home all I want to do is sit on the couch and sit and do nothing. I am bound and determined to overcome this because I feel horrible not exercising or getting anything productive done! I don't really think I have anything to be depressed about, its just this weird tired/sad feeling when I come home that makes me not want to do anything. Its funny how I can sit here and write this and realize how me being sad and not doing anything is my choice, but when I come home I feel like if I don't sit on that couch I will collapse! So tonight instead of heading home I am going to the gym, tricking my body into doing something productive. We'll see if it works!

On a sidenote I just got Chris Thile's new cd Deceiver and its pretty good. Very very different music for him. Its jazzy, folky, a little bit of every kind of music. Lyrically it hasn't grabbed me yet but I need to listen to it more!